D for Dragon!

Too occupied to blog! Cant even spare some time to reply texts properly wtf sorry ha. What with cousins coming back and reunion dinners and PLAYING BIG FAT LIAR and having home-made sushi and karaoke (hahahahaha) and work. Ahem. Not some kind of work you can think of, i bet. It requires erm, skill and talent and patience bla bla bla. Go ahead and guess but im not telling you. =P

Anyway, this is the first year im actually enjoying CNY so far! Cousins seem to be more fun and friendlier than they used to be BUT THEY'RE LEAVING ALREADY!!! T__T Haih i will miss you all.

Okay i gotta move my lazy butt to work already. AT THIS TIME OF THE DAY?? Ya lor. Lol.

I know it's kinda late to say HCNY now but it's only 初四 so it counts. Right???

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! HUAT AAAAAARRRRRRR!!!

Teehee.

IF.

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth that you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave you life to, broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all you winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch - and - toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when nothing is in you
Except the Will which says to them : "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run-
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

-- Rudyard Kipling --

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As i was sitting on my bed wondering if McD is ever going to ring me up for an interview (and hire me duh), i have this sudden urge to do something lol. Thus i offer to help DoDo and she asks me to cut mangos.

Exactly feeling that way. Replace BRO with MOM.

But then..ONE OF MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!

Okay fine. Challenge accepted.

And so i took a knife and

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KILL MYSELF.

No lah actually i slit my wrist.

NOT!!

TADAH! *cues rounds of applause*

What's more, I MADE ICE-BLENDED MANGO SMOOTHIE. Bloody hell now you know how bored i am. Instead of putting those flesh into my mouth i end up doing more work than i should. (SO Y SHOULDNT MCD HIRE ME?? Lolol.)

And did you know that mangoes are actually good for our skin?? Yusss. I saw that from a television programme. I guess thats what that motivated me doing more work lolol. You just have to pay the price.

What you need are mango flesh, milk, ice blender, honey (or sugar) and ice cubes. No exact amount of ingredients used, it all depends on personal preference. You can also add in aloe vera and yogurt, which, i think, will make it taste a whole lot better. But since there's none in my fridge, oh well..

All you have to do is to put everything inside the blender and switch it on to blend everything well. This is how mine looks like.
The latter looks kinda gross hor wtf.

Pour them into a cup (Or you can directly finish it in the blender wtf. Depends on how lazy you are.) and thats all. Simple and nais!

Whoever says food that are good for health always taste like shit,

GO DIE.

Confusion.

Afraid of losing?

Ah silly.
Not even yours to lose.

Which way??

No idea how to get started. So much thoughts in my mind, yet no idea how to express them, let alone speaking them out loud. Some of my friends are going to colleges soon. I mean real soon, in no time at all. You get that picture.

And me? Odds of me being chosen for Matriculation are slim, though i wouldnt say none. Hence Form 6 is the only, and also the best choice. Why Form 6? Why not colleges?
1. Fees.
2. Which way to go????

That explain all.

I have no idea which course should i take. No doubt i love Science. In the sense of love, i mean i do love gaining knowledge, but exams?? saving lives???? making big impacts for the world?????? Thanks but no thanks. Im not born for that.

More often than not, i get so exhausted of living up to everyone's expectations. Just because im doing fine for F4 and 5 doenst mean that im not under lots of pressure. Peer pressure, maybe. Or is it plain pressure from i myself? Whenever i got so depressed of studying, i try to think about my dreams. Sometimes it works but undoubtedly, talking to my friends helps more.

People have this wrong idea that we shouldnt choose any other pathway just because we're doing fine with Science. Why not business? Why not hotel management? Why not interior design? Why not culinary art? There're no such courses provided in secondary school and hence we're choosing Science instead of Accounts and Arts. Come to think of it, i've actually filled in Art class as my second choice for Form 4. Why not the first choice? Because im afraid of letting my family down. And, sorry if i sound arrogant, i have confidence that i wont be chosen for Art class. Really. I think the teachers would talk me into taking Science even if i insisted taking Art. Can you see my point? Urgh i really suck at explaining things.

My parents wanted my bro to promote me to go straight to USM instead of spending two years for Form 6. I was scared when i heard this. I really was. But my bro and i sort of have this heart and soul thingy although we dont talk much lol. He asked if i've decided which course to choose, what dreams to pursue?

Exactly.

I. Am. No. Doctor. Nor am i some kind of super holiao accountant.

I asked for an ordinary life since the day i was born. Why cant i be a normal OL? Just dealing with paperwork? I dunno. Dodo always tells me that i may not be having a job related to what i've studied for these years. True. So what if i choose Biology and some day in the future im a designer? Does my hard work pay everything off? I know i didnt waste my time studying but i have no intentions to be something i dont want to be. Damn it's so depressing thinking all these. I know my friends have been real helpful and supportive, introducing lotsa interesting courses and asking me to pursue my dream at the same time. But i still cant make my mind up.

Well, if i really gotta choose, which to? Medicine sounds good. Radiation therapy sounds cool. Bioscience seems interesting. White biotech, which i just Wiki-ed, sorta caught my eyes. Or dietitian/nutritionist, which is what i think i love the most?

Which way to go? I truly believe i can do well in whichever field, as long as i want to. So i've got to choose one that worth all my hard work and time, right? See im kiasu like that. Accommodate my plans to earn a living. I disgust myself, lol.

Tired of trying to figure things out. Not hoping anyone to get me out of here, just plain sharing and whining lol, since everyone has their own fair share of problems. Things had looked pretty bad there for a while. But isnt it funny how everything kind of works itself out in the end?